rant.

Today, my dad was once again scolding me on stuff again.  Bitching about me and whatever.  he said a couple stupid things on his part, like, "johnny rotten was the founder of the punk movement" and "people like [the guy smoking on a picture on my wall]  are the losers of our society"  I mean, don't try to teach me about punk.  Don't try to tell me about society.  Of course, I made the extremely stupid mistake of saying that I felt "fashion was the only way I was different", BUT, the really sad thing was,

I see the same reasoning and same intelligence in him as I do in my friends on mohawks rock.  I see anti-materialism, anti-do it just for fashion, and even anti-government, to an extent.  These ideals are the reasons I've looked up to him for so long, and they are also the reasons I'm "rebeling" against him and my mother.  They (smarter conservatives like my dad, and smarter radical thugs like some I've heard) both stay "stop this shit! I know what's right, and I don't want anyone saying that their way is right!  Stop doing stupid things with no reasons"

  I really wish I could tell him my real views, what I think, that I'm not just this shallow bitch who's wearing it just to wear it.  

But Im not open like that, as a general rule of thumb.  I feel like if I'm open like that I'll get obbsessed, or worse, They'll be mad I'm so radical.  They'll be mad one of my best friends is bisexual.  and that I know people who do drugs, and I don't care.  They won't like me, and well, I'd rather them be mad at me for being shallow, then them have deep reasons to be mad at me.   If they were mad at me for deep reasons, I wouldn't be able to change it, it would really matter.